A Memory unforgotten…. The Friend that never left
In all my life, I’ve seen people come and go. Ironically they are usually those related. Yes people say familial ties are the strongest bonds and that at the end of the day when all hope seems lost. Well I always beg to differ. Yeah sure, you do have a stronger sense of belonging and safety but it isn’t one that comes with no conflicts and whatnots. All my life I have surrounded myself with many friends for support and kept them close to my heart. My pillars of support to speak , have only come into my life and I’ve never anticipated their exit. Never before has it happened until last year- encountering a new breed of people in my life. Honestly, they were some who I would never want to meet in life ever again. People who paint false images of themselves, they advocate morals and ideals yet they are the same ones who act otherwise. I’ve never more douchebags in one place anywhere but where i am right now. I’ve met my way share of backstabbing pricks, guys who would rather shelter the girls despite them being in the wrong just because they want to earn their trust, and bitchy little thwarts. Encountering them is one thing, but getting scarred by them is a whole different issue…
Yeah you know who you are. I kept asking myself what did I ever do to deserve this fate. All those sleepless nights, pondering over what went wrong between our friendship, what did I do and what I could do to mend things between us. I stood by as you stood by me through a number of times when we needed someone to share our thoughts and feelings with, emotions that no other could understand thoroughly due to the unique nature. The hours we spent talking, the times we shared while we out and the jokes we cracked. Similarities drew us closer, the absurd bonded us further. We stood together as close friends, standing at the edge smiling at the atrocities around us and rebelling against societal norms and values. We stood together, side by side sticking out our middle finger to those who needed a reminder that they were being a screwball.
Yeah we had fun and saw ourself in each other day by day. I could not stand to see you upset, no I could not watch despair overwhelm you. I could not let you transgress further, we both were dark enough. You were there for me in my worst experience, till date i still remember your peevish smile as you pretended to be uninterested in what situation i was in. I always owe you for being there for me at that spur of a moment, I never expected that honestly. I told myself often enough, nothing will ever upset my friendship with you, no one could stand in our way. But Fate has its ways of turning situations around. You began to act strangely, I felt it. Yet I still put it all aside as I believed in my friendship more than anything. You gave me the ‘best’ treatment a person will ever get from a close friend, unforgettable ones really.
Did you ever think about what the times we shared when you put me through all that emotional spinoffs? did it ever occur to you even once to clarify your doubts and suspicions with me? You knew well enough, I confided in you every damn thing in my life. I opened my heart out to you, not expecting anything in return but rather as a sign of trust and respect. Believe what you want, from the tongues of others who spun tales about me, exaggerated my intentions etc. I never lied to you, you chose not to ask me anything and decided to just do what others will do in such cases I guess. You aren’t so different from the others really dear friend. You may appear dark and mystique but in the end when faced with situations common to all, You are NO DIFFERENT. Look at yourself and believe that. I know for a fact, that you will never forget the times we shared, despite your stubborness to erase them from memory.
You turned people against me, so be it. I dehumanized in character for you to happy.. Im not patronizing you really, and I’m not trying to earn my way back into your mind… Please, am I that shallow! I know for a fact that I never had any queer intentions about you before. I was as true as I am to you and to everyone else. But I admit to this- I was more truthful to than others from where we were. You spoke about me behind my back, ugly truths and whatnots i don’t care really. I tried several times to patch up with you but then, you threw me off time and again. I arose many a time with hope that we will unite as friends for it was only a mere misunderstanding I had thought you had over me. But then I realised it had become a deep rooted hatebreed issue. I will tell you this - I have always loved you as a dear friend and a sibling. I have always wished you and will continue wishing you the best in your future endeavors.
To my stubborn friend, I will always remember of, for the lessons I learnt with my encounter with you has made me much more stronger I assure. You have been a motivation in my mind as I strived to prove people wrong and in whatever challenges I’ve stood for. I aimed to do better than you in my second year, and yes I did. I aimed to recognised for something in school, yes I did. I aimed to get a better grade than you in your favorite subject, yes I did. I’m not gloating honestly, but merely presenting to you your impact on my life. I told myself after you, there will be no other who can take your place as a sibling in my life. Yet again Fate has its ways. This year someone came along, little did I know we will bond as tight as what we were and even more. No romantic feelings but its still a sort of love for someone special. You exited my life leaving me in shambles, I outgrew it with support from longstanding and current acquaintances. I will be a Ghost of your past for sure, and you shall forever reside in my Bone Garden. Till we never meet again…
Our ‘death’ dates- 31 May 2009
5 June to 26 June 2009
24 July 2009
13 August 2009
How do we leave out the best times yeah:
Our ‘Birth’ dates- 19 February 2009
22 April 2009
As a symbol of the time we ever knew each other- the Wolf ….
Timeless Beauty…. A Tribute
For all you folks who have no clue who this is, let me just enlighten you illiterate bums. Audrey Hepburn (4 May 1929 – 20 January 1993) was a British actress and an humanitarian noted for her contributions.
Born in Ixelles, Belgium as Audrey Kathleen Ruston, Hepburn spent her childhood chiefly in the Netherlands, including German-occupied Arnhem, Netherlands, during the Second World War. She had studied ballet in Arnhem and then moved to London in 1948, where she continued to train in ballet and worked as a photographer’s model. She appeared in several European films before starring in the 1951 Broadway play Gigi.
Hepburn became one of the most successful film actresses in the world and performed with notable leading men such as Gregory Peck, Rex Harrison, Humphrey Bogart, Gary Cooper, Cary Grant, Henry Fonda,
Her war-time experiences inspired her passion for humanitarian work even though she had worked for UNICEF since the 1950s, during her later life she dedicated much of her time and energy to the organization. From 1988 until 1992, she worked in some of the most profoundly disadvantaged communities of Africa, South America and Asia. In 1992, Hepburn was awarded the Presidential Medal of Freedom in recognition of her work as a UNICEF Goodwill Ambassador. In 1999, she was ranked as the third greatest female star of all time by the American Film Institute( AFI). Her contributions to society, based on her own experiences sheds light on her quality of a true humanitarian who knew what she could do to ensure that the world was a better place than she had known when she was growing up. Escaping the clutches of the repressive Germans she had the opportunity to ensure herself a future in which her career soared from. An impressive dancer, a fabulous actor and a true mother to her sons, she ensured that she spread joy, care and entertainment wherever she could. Her death was however a tragic one, Cancer. Sometimes the life of an iconic figure does have tragic endings and in Ms Audrey’s case it was indeed true. She endured the pains and effects of cancer, yet it did not stop her from performing her duties as an humanitarian.
Personally i first caught a glimpse of Ms Audrey in ‘My Fair Lady’ directed in 1964. A classic really, and an interesting story line to match it. What a sight, i still remember, catching a glimpse of her. No words to describe my amazement you can say, she was wonderful!!!!!!!!! Simply phrased i know, but it represents my view nonetheless. Dazzling beauty, ravishing looks and expressions, what a scene to embrace. Her sleek figure, breathtaking smile- still a sight to stare into space for, literally.
To the fans of Audrey Hepburn, a tribute i present as an appreciation and acceptance of her being the jewel of the movie industry. Love you always….
